Who am I? I don’t really know. I got my diagnosis – bipolar disorder – two years ago during a manic episode and started treatment. My mood stabilizer dosage wasn’t enough and the depressive episode came again. I knew that I have bipolar disorder and depression should end. So I stopped taking meds. I wanted to wait till I “snap out of it”, because I didn’t like taking antidepressants. I “snapped out of it” in February 2021 – after being depressed for 1.5 years. I contacted my doctor again and started treatment.
I’m now 30 years old. I had lived 28 years before I got my diagnosis. I don’t know anymore, which parts of me have been me and which parts are symptoms of a disease. Have I ever been myself? Who will I be when I’m stable? Will I even like myself?
I live together with my partner, our 4-year-old son, two cats and a dog. Me and my partner have been together almost 10 years, on-and-off. I like spending time in nature, animals, gardening, skiing. There are other things, which I like sometimes, but sometimes I don’t, for example reading. I own a small business, my work is connected with animals.